So this isn't technically a mini
memo, but I am dropping in to record
a little impromptu, I don't know you
wanna call it Scenario situation.
What's a, what's a good word for this one?
I want to just capture this experience
and document it in real time, and I
probably will release it as a Friday.
Episode today is Thursday, October 9th,
and I wrapped up, I don't know if you
guys listened to the episode, talked about
it a couple times where I did a 30 day
money challenge, which ended on Tuesday.
Yeah, Tuesday was the
last morning of that.
Well, I was feeling so good.
I was just feeling the power of
that and really starting to own.
This identity of abundance and
wealth, and then Wednesday morning,
one of those things happened that
just rocks your entire world,
a curve ball outta left field.
I'm not gonna say what it is
because I don't want to share
it until I see the full arc.
Of what's going on here.
But it was one of those tests that
arrive, that shakes your faith in
all the work you've been doing.
And you're like, oh my God,
is this really happening?
How can this be happening?
And when it happened, as I'm
hearing the news of it, I'm in my
mind saying, okay, this is a test.
This is an opportunity to.
Reframe this and to step into
this as potential, and I'm
trying to tell myself that.
I'm also trying to tell
myself, feel the feelings.
Don't stuff the feelings.
Allow yourself to have feelings
about it, but do not let the feelings
become your predominant frequency.
Just honor the feeling and then surrender.
Surrender and hold certainty.
Hold faith, hold the frequency
that everything is good.
Yeah, everything that
you're hearing is good.
Not only good, but the best thing ever.
And it's so weird because at some
point during the money challenge, I
remember thinking how easy it is to
hold that frequency when you don't
actually have a situation testing it.
Like you can imagine what your life
would be like if your home were
suddenly destroyed in a natural
disaster or something, but you don't
know until something actually happens.
You can't feel it physiologically.
Yesterday I felt it physiologically,
my chest got so tight.
I had fear, I had worry.
I had doubt.
I kept telling myself, just be sure
that this all works out somehow.
And I kept trying to tell myself that,
trying to feel into it, but I couldn't.
I was doing breath work.
I got to the point throughout the day,
you know, where I'd have pockets of it.
And it really helped to go into
the university because I just
pointed my mind at being of service.
Let no one that I see
today be impacted by this.
Let me just be of service.
So that helped.
And I came home, went to bed,
woke up at one in the morning.
Doubt.
thought spirals.
What are we gonna do if this, what am
I gonna do if that, what about this?
You know, should I be
pursuing this option?
Should I be doing that?
All of that.
And I know this probably doesn't make
a lot of sense since I'm not giving
context, but as I said, I don't
think the context is helpful yet.
And also, I just want to document this.
This is really a documentation for my
own, coming back to and remembering so.
In the middle of the night, I got this
idea to listen to, don't laugh at me.
I don't know where this came from,
but this is what popped up in my head,
like tribal drumming, like warrior,
native American shamonic type drumming.
I was at a retreat in, was it August and.
One of my coaches put on some of this
shamanic drumming, for lack of a better
term, in the background, while we
were doing a meditation on something.
And that just came to my mind and
it was supposed to put us in this
trance-like state, but I kept
thinking, I gotta go to battle here.
To me, it felt like a war cry, like
a warrior preparing for battle.
When I woke up this morning after.
Briefly falling back asleep.
I waited until the sun was about to rise
and I put on this track that I found on
Spotify of drumming, and it was like the
most powerful thing I could have done.
In fact, I thought I gotta
make a brain serum about this.
Those of you who have worked with me
know exactly what I'm talking about.
I make these.
Brain serum.
That's for another episode.
I'm not gonna go into that, but I
thought, I need this exact track and
I'm gonna lay a brain serum under it so
that I can listen to this all the time.
I had the posture of a warrior and I just
imagined myself going to battle with fear,
not with the situation that I found myself
in, but with fear just standing face to
face, staring fear straight in the eye.
And saying, I will
battle you over and over.
This is my life.
This is my reality.
You don't own it.
Oh God, it was so powerful.
So I wanted to come in
here and capture that.
I'm actually going to put a link
to, if I can figure out how to
do it to the Spotify track that
I listen to and go be a warrior.
Go use this.
I think it's meant to probably relax
people, but I found it extremely
activating in the best way.
I felt so powerful.
I still don't know what the solution is.
I don't know how it's going to work
itself out, but I know this is my ultimate
opportunity right now to face fear in the
fucking eyes and walk right through it.
It calmed my nervous system
down and empowered me.
And anything we do in terms of the brain
that moves us closer to feeling like
we are in control and in our power,
it is what directly increases our
frequency, our electromagnetic biofield
that we're all walking around in.
I love this concept of
going to battle with fear.
I'm a warrior.
I'm facing it.
I don't think this would've even
occurred to me had I not been in a
mastermind, going to a retreat, having
this different episode and then going
through the money challenge, like
all the pieces kind of came together
in order to give me that experience.
So I wanted to share it in case it
is helpful for anyone else out there.
We are in rocky times right now, and
our ability to face fear is going to
be the strongest currency We have.
really the ability to control our
minds, which is my full work, ? That
is my passion, that is my career.
That is my focus.
And so if I can find a way to
help others with what I'm going
through, bring on the fear.
I actually thought in my warrior Walk
this morning, this is gonna prepare
me for an even bigger fear I can face.
And that excited me, which is crazy.
Crazy.
But that's the power of the mind.
Power of the mind directly
controls the brain.
Mind is the software.
Brain is the computer, and we get to
live the program that that creates.
Go better on yourself.